Are you wondering if my social life is affected? Well, the answer to that is yes and no.
YES
Yes in the fact that I can't dress like I would like. I know that high heels are overrated, but any kind of heel poses a problem. Skirts and shorts look weird because all of the attention is drawn to my legs. I have been told by others with similar issues that I am brave for wearing shorts and/or compression hoses in the summer for all to see. This condition does play with your emotions and your self esteem. Like every girl, I would think about my soul mate or my future family. But after so many years of this, I sometimes feel that it wouldn't be fair to them in the long run. I am used to taking care of people not the other way around. I'm not sure that I know how to deal with the thought of extreme limited mobility or even death. So why should I put that burden on someone else? At first, I would wait to tell a guy about my condition. I would wait until we had been on a couple of dates to see if it was even worth telling him. Then, as I got older, I began to tell them up front. I just put it all on the table. If they were still interested, then I would feel somewhat relieved. I find that I always cover up. I am plain Jane! If it is a cute outfit, then 9 times out of 10 I don't own it. I don't like shopping for clothes because of it and shopping for shoes is way too easy. I only buy tennis shoes because they are the only thing that can give me comfort and proper support. Of course, I have to get a half size bigger to accommodate the size differences between my feet. I love flip flops, but when your toes look like piggies then it is not very attractive. Not to mention the amount of swelling that comes from wearing them. Do I want to ever get married and have kids? Yes, but I'm not holding my breath.
NO
No in the fact that I have developed a nonchalant, stubborn, hard-shell-to-crack attitude out of all this. I work hard at not letting other's comments or views get to me. I work hard at calling guys out on the games that they play. I don't have time to waste on someone that isn't ready to love or ready to show me the respect that I deserve. I do what I do best; ME! I focus on me and what I enjoy doing in life. I find new things to explore. Basically, I try to find joy in being my own company. I've gotten more involved in my church and have begun to read my bible more frequently than before. It is an amazing feeling to be truly happy with who you are regardless of your situation. I couldn't have gotten this far without God and the support of my friends and family.
YES
Yes in the fact that I can't dress like I would like. I know that high heels are overrated, but any kind of heel poses a problem. Skirts and shorts look weird because all of the attention is drawn to my legs. I have been told by others with similar issues that I am brave for wearing shorts and/or compression hoses in the summer for all to see. This condition does play with your emotions and your self esteem. Like every girl, I would think about my soul mate or my future family. But after so many years of this, I sometimes feel that it wouldn't be fair to them in the long run. I am used to taking care of people not the other way around. I'm not sure that I know how to deal with the thought of extreme limited mobility or even death. So why should I put that burden on someone else? At first, I would wait to tell a guy about my condition. I would wait until we had been on a couple of dates to see if it was even worth telling him. Then, as I got older, I began to tell them up front. I just put it all on the table. If they were still interested, then I would feel somewhat relieved. I find that I always cover up. I am plain Jane! If it is a cute outfit, then 9 times out of 10 I don't own it. I don't like shopping for clothes because of it and shopping for shoes is way too easy. I only buy tennis shoes because they are the only thing that can give me comfort and proper support. Of course, I have to get a half size bigger to accommodate the size differences between my feet. I love flip flops, but when your toes look like piggies then it is not very attractive. Not to mention the amount of swelling that comes from wearing them. Do I want to ever get married and have kids? Yes, but I'm not holding my breath.
NO
No in the fact that I have developed a nonchalant, stubborn, hard-shell-to-crack attitude out of all this. I work hard at not letting other's comments or views get to me. I work hard at calling guys out on the games that they play. I don't have time to waste on someone that isn't ready to love or ready to show me the respect that I deserve. I do what I do best; ME! I focus on me and what I enjoy doing in life. I find new things to explore. Basically, I try to find joy in being my own company. I've gotten more involved in my church and have begun to read my bible more frequently than before. It is an amazing feeling to be truly happy with who you are regardless of your situation. I couldn't have gotten this far without God and the support of my friends and family.
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